A new site would never happen, there's no point. I have no intention of running another site in my life time. (Not to say it won't happen, but for now.) I don't have the time--and even if I did, I don't have the energy or motivation I once had.

Right now, I'm happy just being a member at TSC.

Neb ... ugh, it's weird typing that, is right. Fifteen year olds have no business having a site. We discussed this the other day slightly, and agreed in MOST circumstances (the owner of Mugglenet being an exception) anyone under eighteen has no business running a site. They truly have no idea what they are getting into. I for one, know I had no idea what I was going in.

I don't need a site of my own. Teenagers only want to be an admin or mod so they can "be the boss" and boss people around. I don't need that anymore, I used to love making people follow my rules... but eh, I can survive without. I'm happy at TSC, and I will remain faithful to it as long as it exists.

A lot of good things happened on this site, it was a lot of fun while it lasted. And quite frankly, it is mostly my fault it ended. When I started going to TSC I realized how SD could never be as great as TSC. Why you ask? For a site to be truly great, it involves putting your own dough into it. I don't have money to put into a website. I could never provide SD with a chat room, a real domain, nothing like that. CJ on the other hand already has all that set up.

I really have no desire to run a website anymore. I would love to stay in contact with as many of you as possible. Most of you have me on MSN, and if you don't you can PM me here (I will continue to check this site every so often, depending on when I think of it). Also, I have created a Facebook page for my online friends if you wish to add me on that - just ask via PM or MSN if you have me. Or, if you want to join The Simmers Club that would even be a quicker way to get a hold of me, as I sign on there daily.

For me, friendship is all I'm really looking for - not control. I know I'm not the easiest person to get along with, in real life and online. I have many faults which I'm trying to overcome.

I cannot believe I am actually logging back into a site that I promised myself I would never associate with again. I visited the place out of curiosity... why tonight? Not sure... but get ready, here goes my big speech...

Not that this will matter to anyone anymore, seeing as no one signs in or posts, and the site is utterly dead, but I felt it only appropriate to share my feelings about Simmers Dream at its funeral.

I remember stumbling upon this site 3 years ago now. Or 2? I can't quite remember, time escapes me. I was so set on becoming staff - I thought it would be the coolest thing ever. But alas I left on vacation and didn't come back for a month. I returned to find this shady Cheesy character in charge. I was envious, full of rage. Emereld had left her in charge?! Brighty hinted to me that she was taking over the site. What this meant? Well, she had become admin. Did I understand that? No, of course not, I thought she was just evil.

So of course, the drama began. I don't remember how many accounts I've had, how many "second chances" I've had (I put it in quotes because I've had at least 4 or 5). But I am grateful that I could remain a part of this once thriving community, even though I caused it more harm than good. All the drama I instigated, influenced, caused, and reinforced... not once did I ever try and stop it. Let's face it - I was drama-hungry.

Then came Christmas and New Years, and the great BBS Flood. There was finally peace on Simmers Dream (at least, it was peaceful to what it had been for the past few months). And of course I chose that time to leave. I was gone all of January, only to return and practically start World War III, which lasted well into the summer of that year. Apart from comas and fake identities, I came clean to a select group of friends. Though the war still waged, most violently with one of the friends I came clean with. The other friend I lost. For a long while, she was gone.

Things get fuzzy from there. I know I joined TSC and caused more drama there, and then I left on my birthday of 2008. (ok, so it was about 2 1/2 years ago this all started) I came back, then left, then came back, then left, and so on. Nothing was stable anymore. I wasn't stable. I couldn't figure out what I wanted in life, mainly online, but also offline. Simmers Dream had faded into oblivion. I don't remember the last time I felt I was a part of it. But it was a long time ago.

So to all of you who will end up reading this someday (as long as SD is not taken down, and you login to read it) I am to blame for its death. Not the only one to blame, but I played a major role in its life and probably gave it cancer a long time ago, inducing a slow and painful death over the years. Let's just say, 15-year-olds are not meant to run a website. If I could do it all again I would have started now, at 18. But that's something that won't happen.

Sorry to everyone for everything, I hope you all enjoyed your time here.

To Simpettable, Emereld, Lasweets, Greta, Jay, and more, but most importantly Brighty and Cheesy, my two greatest online friends - thank you for the fun times...

SD Homecoming

New Years Eve party and BBS Flood

the unforgettable Valentines Week

the cbox parties

flooding the games section

and the friendships...

Yours truly,
Neb

Many of you might remember me as DragonGirl. Some of you called me Dragon. A few people from here dislike me, but I guess we can leave it in the past now.

I've had many great memories from this site, it has always been one of my favourites. All my friends were here, I met many of them in this very place. Greta248, Mal, Simpettable, killaroxsox32, all of those people have been really nice to me and I am thankful.

I remember me going hysterics over people saying Jay was dead, and the joke that had started at that very time. I've talked to Jay this summer, and I am glad he is well.

I also remember becoming a goddess at this site, and how happy I was.

I am really sad to see this place go.

I'll miss you all and will always think of you as my friends.

Love,
-DragonGirl

I don't know about other states, but I know in Iowa the foster parents go under extensive background checks and have the social workers coming through their houses regularly to check on the kids and the house surroundings. There's no way a foster parent would get by abusing a child here. My mother was a foster parent for many years. They have to go through a class and all. I would think if a person wanted a child just to abuse them, they wouldn't even bother with the classes and all that. Once again, I don't know about other states.